Accept the Ebb and Flow of Life
Your Higher Self wants you to see that your journey to self is perfectly timed; not a minute faster or slower than it was meant to be.
You are self-aware and know that you truly create your reality. However, you are now feeling frustrated as the reality that you have surrounded yourself with isn’t quite what you expected. Your heavenly reality doesn’t appear to match the one you were hoping for and you are frustrated at your lack of progress in life.
Rest assured all the right components are in place. Your emotional and spiritual maturity forms a good foundation for what you want to experi-ence in this lifetime. What you are healing is a sense of loss, a feeling that something is missing even though you have a relationship, a good job (or job options) in life, creative pursuits, and so on. Initially you thought you would feel better once you achieved your goals, the perfect house, partner, career, etc. But now this feeling of loss is causing you to question everything. You wonder if you have the right partner, job or location, etc.
The feeling that something is missing is symbolic of many things. It may be a habit such that every time you achieve a goal you focus on the next goal or you focus on the gap not the results. You may use that feeling of something missing to motivate you, to move you into action to achieve the next step and to silence the fear that if you slack off you may miss out. The missing piece is a part of you. Perhaps a hurt or past wound has left you disconnected from feeling loved. What do you feel is missing from your world right now? Is it the feeling of being connected? It is important that you identify the missing component (that core part of yourself ) because this is the part of your puzzle that you have been looking to find for a long time. The feeling of frustration is designed to help you find this missing part of you and bring it back to oneness.
Once you have identified the missing core part of yourself you will be facing the doorway of acceptance. You must open this door of acceptance in order to bring this part back to oneness with your true self. Acceptance is the key to the missing piece of your puzzle. Acceptance is the glue that holds, brings order to and integrates all of your life’s experiences from all the different periods of time into the meaningful whole. This journey you struggle with now is one of acceptance.
Think of flowing down a river and each obstacle along the way is rep-resented by a boulder or rock that sits in your path. Each rock along your journey represents the many experiences of your life – the many joys, the losses, the highs and the lows. The flow of life occurs when we are able to move from one experience to another. We accept each moment in its perfection as it arises. If you are in the ebb and flow you might pass by the rock uninterrupted. If you resist accepting one aspect of yourself you might hit the rock and through your fear of loss you cling to the rock as the water (life) passes you by. You remain stuck, unable to flow with the currents and events of life. To re-enter a state of flow you first accept the emotions the rock represents for you and then the doorway will open. Once the door opens you are then able to integrate the experience into your identity and flow will automatically occur for you.
In clinging to the rock you are holding on to the very part of you that you resist. There is an opposition to an experience as it confirms or opposes your chosen identity, for example, the powerless victim or powerful hero, etc. Your fear of losing this identity keeps you clinging to the rock, the rock of who you think you are, filled with the archives of all the old images, the old experiences of your life. When you look at those old experiences it is not that you valued the beating that you received from a parent or the humiliation you experienced with a client or a classmate. Rather you are clinging to a distorted sense of self – whether as victim or victor – as if this is all of who you are. When you cling to those experiences they are unresolved within your inner self but together they form the basis of your emotional self. The rock of emotional wounds reflects a distorted belief that you will protect yourself by remembering what was done to you. By remembering what was done to you, you pay homage to this wound and then you become stuck, unable to walk through the emotional door, unable to let go and unable to accept because you are afraid. Your fear of letting go is saying, ‘I do not wish for this person, situation or emotion to influence me anymore’, but you are clinging to the pain that does influence you.
In your fear you try a process, you try to forgive, you acknowledge your-self, you achieve many goals where you are successful but what is missing is that you have never fully integrated the experience. You ask, ‘Who will I be and what message am I sending by accepting this situation, this person, this experience right now?’ It is acceptance that will allow you to comprehend your whole journey, to place it in its right context. You fear that acceptance means forever. What is wrong is made right if accepted. You resist in order to keep what is wrong in its place.
What you accept is neither the incident nor its moral foundation but rather you accept your true self. The internal resistance that one experiences in the division of self occurs when one cannot accept oneself. Your journey of acceptance is to learn to let go of the judgements you hold. Let go of the rock you now cling to. Embrace those parts you cannot love. In the act of accepting you will receive the experience of flow. Flow down the river to Source. One’s experiences will dissolve when one accepts not the right or the wrong of an experience but the growth that came of the experience. In the case of a son who is beaten by his father, the son learns to accept that he is not the version of his father’s creation. He accepts that in spite of his father’s influence he has been able to develop many abilities, experiences, relationships and other successes in opposition of his father’s will. What you are being asked to do in this card is accept the growth and expansion within you.
Acceptance is a unit of integration. It integrates an entire life. It places events into their appropriate order so that no single past event becomes number one – always current in your mind and in your heart. The full inte-gration of your life is the doorway you are asked to cross, and in this crossing acceptance becomes freedom and flow is restored. When you do this, you become at peace. Your journey to self is perfectly timed, not a minute faster or slower than it was meant to be.
