You are Disconnected from Source

Your Higher Self is calling you to reconnect to your source: Your Self.

You appear to be doing all the right things, meditating, giving thanks and gratitude, lighting candles, saying mantras, and so on. Your intention is in alignment with your Higher Self so why isn’t all happening now!? Your version of spirituality says you have surrendered but only to the point when you feel Spirit gives what you want. Connection with Source/Higher Self, however, is not based on a petition to Spirit, on the premise that if you constantly pray, ask nicely and are good enough, spirit will grant what you want.

Connection to Source is instead based on the connection to self and from this alignment with self you feel connected to all. Therefore, you are not disconnected from Source as such; you are disconnected from you. You are disconnected from the Source of you that is creating your experiences.

All of our experiences are formed from sending out thoughts and emotional impulses into the universal energy field. The energy you send out boomerangs back to you in the form of events, situations and connections with others. Your disconnection has occurred because you lack awareness of the thoughts and impulses that link you to your experience.

The Higher Self has a way of getting you to face yourself and can create difficulties if you don’t pay attention to what you feel (in certain situations). These difficulties highlight the different aspects of self you are disconnected from. Essentially you create your experiences to draw attention to facets that need help to develop or mature. These experiences may be large or small, such as conflict in your work or relationships, events or health issues. You are using these experiences to peel away the layers of your false identity to reveal who you are, all shiny bright and new.

The larger the event or experience is, the more likely it is related to your core identity. The formation of identity and sense of self starts in childhood and comes together throughout adolescence and early adulthood. If you experience a large difficulty in your life your attention is being directed to the very foundation of you, where you were first formed. You may have struggled to establish a sense of self that is separate from the identity of family, community and friends where parents or individuals may have dominated you. Alternatively, a catastrophic event during childhood prevented, distorted or shattered your ability to form a unique sense of self. You were swallowed up by these original experiences and your identity is now defined by trauma.

When you have a diffused sense of self it is difficult to see how you have created the world you experience. You tend to be reactive towards events rather than acting from a solid sense of your own values and beliefs. Like a chameleon, you may change your colours to be the person you think others want you to be. In this way you are seeking approval, being a peacemaker instead of authentically sharing what you think and feel.

Here is the situation you presently face:

• Your disconnection may be to aspects of yourself that you cannot see or struggle to accept.
• Your sense of self has not fully formed so that you are unable to recognise your core emotional needs.
• Your motivation for what you do is hidden.
• Your actions are more likely based in fear rather than on your core values.
• Your true self may feel inadequate or afraid of missing out or not worthy of what you wish for.
• Your need to prove yourself with those around you keeps you in competition rather than connection.
• Your difficulties highlight what is true for you at your core.

So, the question is: Who are you truly? Do you know? Your journey is to know thyself. Ask yourself, ‘What do I want?’, then listen.

When you acknowledge yourself you begin to see exactly how and what you created and the purpose it served. You also no longer need to play the role of the victim of circumstance, live out karma, and seek approval or affirmation from others. Being able to connect to the Source empowers you to make different choices, which take responsibility for your self-determination and enable you to accept each experience for what it is and what it teaches you.

To reconnect to your Source totally accept your feeling. This feeling links you to your core. What you feel tells you where your boundaries are, your values, and therefore what is important to you. Once you have fully acknowledged the feeling at the core of an experience you will be able to understand why your Higher Self asked to focus on this. This part of yourself feels vulnerable and needs help to develop new skills.

Plug in, power up, acknowledge yourself to link to the eternal Source of love, that is you.