You are Afraid to Change
Your Higher Self is helping you embrace your true self. You are ready to come home.
There are two parallel tracks in one’s existence. The one track is aligned with Source filled with the mantra ‘SELF – SOURCE – LOVE’. This is the ultimate journey, the journey back to self that leads you back to Source (and the Source is Love). The other track is aligned with a composite you have created from your experiences, conditioning, family values, and so on, which you identify as you. If you have chosen this card you have travelled along this latter track driven by fears of your ego. The internal you and the external you (behaviours and outcomes) are not working in sync. The lack of alignment between your desires and behaviours points to your fear of death. Not the fear of death of your physical body but the death of your personality. Your Higher Self now wants to lead you back to the track aligning you with your true self and Source.
You want to make fundamental changes but you struggle to take the necessary action to achieve your goals. The changes you seek require a deep-seated shift within you. Even the simplest changes such as to stop drinking coffee, being on time, being more loving to your spouse, are difficult because they require a new identity and you are not ready to embrace the new thoughts and perceptions that will result from that change. It is not that you lack willpower and focus, it is just that there are hidden parts of you that are not aligned with the changes you want to make and are actively working against your goal. You may wish to lose weight, attract a new partner into your life, and yet your behaviours do not support your goals because you fear the loss of the current structure that has kept you feeling safe in your present self.
You ask the question, ‘Who will I be if I make these changes?’ If your self-image is based on the ongoing quest to have what you want, but not actually getting there, you are destined to stay where you are because that’s your identity. In this case you are more committed to the pursuit because you fear the destruction caused by getting to the new destination (the dismantling of the habits, beliefs, secondary gains from others that keep you safe). By doing this you reinforce your identity and constantly fortify energetically the hidden boundaries of safety. You are very familiar and therefore comfortable with the unending search for a partner, perfect job, business, house of your dreams, etc. Although you say you want more your behaviours are saying ‘I wish to remain the same as I am’ because there is safety involved. Otherwise you would have aligned your behaviour to achieve the desired results.
Rejoice you are ready to expand your old sense of self and travel on the track with the mantra ‘SELF – SOURCE – LOVE’. You will reach beyond your current set of feelings and limitations and discover on your track the ease and flow of aligning with Source. Source energy dissolves everything. With your fear dissolved, you will find what you came into existence for – to feel love. Now, you are ready to come home.
